Around and around, I walk in my circle.
One foot in front of the other.
Carefully placed, no space for error.
Head tucked in quiet concentration.
I didn’t realize until it was too late.
I’ve destroyed it with an absent mind.
That thing in my path.
Guilt sways my steady forward march.
Hesitation in every precise step.
I can’t let it happen again.
Slower and slower my pace goes.
Until it goes nowhere.
A fear of failure.
A fear of moving on.
I let it bind me in place.
I can’t recall the next step.
I am stuck, frozen.
Waiting for something to shove me from behind.
To take my hand and pull me along.
Waiting to be forced back into life.
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Picture is from Pintrist
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I have no life and I saw it already. Lol jk
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Haha I did think your like came pretty quickly!
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Heyyy!!😲
Haha.
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LOL
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I’m stuck in a weird paradox right now where I’m reading your frankly beautiful words while Home & Away is on the TV in the background. This is surreal. It’s what I imagine an acid trip might feel like…
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What is home and away. It sounds like a vacation hotspot show.
I wouldn’t know as of yet what an acid trip is like but it very possibly might be. Lol
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It’s a pretty chintzy Australian soap opera, so pretty much the antithesis of what you wrote. Haha. No, I’ve never experienced acid and very highly doubt I ever will
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Ah I see..
For me, it would depend on the circumstances. But probably not. Lol
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I’ve been in the situation one might expect one to take heavy substances (raves such are my musical tastes), but I’ve always refused when offered
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Smart move. I don’t think I’d take anything someone offered me at a rave. It’s crazy. 😣
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I was offered MDA by a couple of friends when I went to a rave at Bowlers in Manchester a couple of years ago. I trusted their stuff would be good as they aren’t mugs, but I’ve gone this long without having anything stronger than weed so I might as well keep it up
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Yeah. I wouldn’t say never to acid, but it would not happen, most likely. I might like to try peyote but I’m not realy even a fan of weed. It goes on for way longer than I like. I get to a point where I’m just done with the feeling and want it to quit, but there’s nothing you can do about it. I don’t like that part. Which is probably why I don’t do drugs. I’m a closet control freak. Haha
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You sound like a poppers girl. A legal high that last just a couple of minutes and loads of fun. That’s what I was doing all night at said rave. And beer naturally
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I am such a light weight I stick to a strict schedule of drinking for the night. It goes.
2 beers drank quickly until buzzed and giggly.
Then beer 3 drank slow while I dance.
Then two waters.
Beer number 4 drank slow and more water, more dancing.
Then beer five if I’m not feeling sick.
By that time it’s 2am and it’s pancake time at Denny’s.
I down at least a liter of water before I sleep then wake up and feel like I’m only half dead.
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Too much water there. Haha. I just pound as much beer/whatever I’m drinking down my neck as I can and see what goes from there. I don’t drink as much nowadays as I used to when I go out, but I’m more picky about what I drink and it’s invariably more potent than what I drank back in the day
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I have to stick to beer. Beer makes my body feel giddy but my brain is good. Hard liquor affects both. And my usually quiet self just blabs whatever funny shit comes to mind. My friends think it’s hilarious because I’m witty as fuck and maybe a little mean and a lot friendly. The next morning my stomach feels like I drink straight acid too. So no to anything other than bud light or colors light now. Haha
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I like to stick to lager/beer in the main (Moretti is my lager of choice), but I do enjoy ales on occasion and I’m into my cocktails too. I like white wine, but tend only to drink that at home
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Yes wine is not the drink to go dancing with. It sloshes in your glass and tummy. 😝 I need food with wine. Then I love it.
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I just like wine on its own. It’s what I usually drink while listening to my weekly radio show. I don’t need food sullying the taste. I do occasionally drink it out and about though. Usually at parties. Never on a night out though
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Really? I thought that food was supposed to bring out the taste of the wine better.
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I’ve always much preferred it as is. Then I do go for more fruity dry whites. The more citrus infused the better. Wines like that don’t need food to accompany them
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I see, because I’m a merlot and pinot noir fan. Not sweet and fruity usually.
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I liked this but found it very sad, albeit with a nice message of hope at the end. Well written Kira 🙂
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Most of my poems have little personal connection for me, but this one does. Fear of achievement and all that jazz…
Thank you for your wonderful comment.😊
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These days climbing into a warm bed at the end of the day is all the achievement I’m after. Contentment is far more important. 🙂
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I fully agree!
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